Tell Me That It's There

by Tyler Taylor

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about

I put together two albums (this one and "Rescue What You Can") which are essentially compilations of a lot of the songs I wrote between 2006 and 2011, before forming The Amends with Drew, Chris, and Shay. I really love a lot of these songs, despite the varying levels in quality of recording and singing. None of these songs were professionally recorded-- it was generally just me, my laptop (using Audacity and M-Audio), and a variety of instruments. In many ways, these represent me learning how to be a songwriter (if that's what I am now). A good chunk of the early ones are about a particular breakup, which actually was the catalyst for learning how to create songs-- as unbearably emo as that may sound. If you listen to The Amends, you may recognize some shared DNA in a few of these.

If you download the whole album, there are also three bonus tracks-- the first version of The Amends' "Hey Regina", an acoustic version of "Sooner Or Later", and The Amends playing Sweetheartbreaker at an early show.

Brief notes on some songs:

"Tell Me That It's There" is probably my favorite of the breakup songs. It was one of the last ones I wrote, and I think it summarizes everything else.

"I Don't Correspond" is easily my biggest Dylan rip-off.

"Indiana Jones" is my favorite song of the bunch, for obvious reasons.

"Dance" isn't really the version The Amends play, but this is where it originated. You may recognize the riff and the general structure, but everything else is pretty different-- especially considering that this one is about reincarnation recall.

We played "Sweetheartbreaker" as The Amends fairly regularly when we first started, but we never recorded it. If you download the whole album, there's a bonus track a version of us playing it live.

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released May 20, 2012

All songs written, performed, sung (fairly weakly), and recorded (fairly shoddily) by Tyler Taylor, except for "Indiana Jones", whose end-section is based off "The Indiana Jones Theme" by John Williams.

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Tyler Taylor Boulder, Colorado

Hi, I'm Tyler. You may know me from my band, The Amends. I'm pretty sure you must if you've found your way here. I made this site so that I could have a place to quietly share my older songs (ones I mostly wrote before founding The Amends with Drew) with anyone who's interested. I recorded and played these myself, so forgive the varying sound quality. All songs are technically free. ... more

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Track Name: Tell Me That It's There
If she asks then you can tell her I've been doing just fine
Tell her she was right, things got a whole lot better with time
If she asks then you can tell her that I almost called last Christmas Eve
Tell her what she needs to hear, what she needs to believe

Tell her I'm eating well and working out and making lots of cash
Important people know my name, my star is rising fast
If she asks then you can tell her I'm doing okay
But please don't tell her that I told you what to say
Please don't tell her that I told you what to say

If she asks then please don't tell her about the night I got too high
The scene I made and the blood I sprayed before the ambulance arrived
If she asks then please don't mention the other girls who come and go
But also please don't tell her of all the nights I spend alone

Don't tell her my medication's been chewing through my brain
Weak wisps of whispered requiems are all that remain
Please don't tell her that I tried to sell her, piece by pretty piece
Memories chopped to verses sung between clenched teeth

If she asks if I forgive her, remind her I never once blinked first
And anyway my secret crimes were at least ten times worse
If she asks if I recall the feel of her rising, falling chest
Then tell her I hope she's happy, and I wish her all the best

Go ahead and remind her of all the other things that I've forgot
But tell her I still remember what a precious thing we lost
Tell her I still remember what we lost
What a precious thing we lost

If you're still with her in the morning and her smile seems repaired
Don't you tell me what it looks like, just tell me that it's there

If you're still with her in the morning and her smile seems repaired
Don't tell me what it looks like, just tell me that it's there

Don't tell me what it looks like, just tell me that it's there
Track Name: Hundred Acres
You may be a heartbreaker
But that's not enough of a deal-breaker
To give up on our hundred acres
And our palace in the hills

You can still be a troublemaker
But why not a risk-taker
Don't have to put our love on paper
If that's what's giving you the chills

What I'm trying to say is we've got nothing left to lose
I'll choose to forget you left me battered and bruised
My heart's still confused, boozed and abused
But I've got room on my body for a few more tattoos

Excuse me if I don't see it from your jaded point of view
I don't mean to be rude, don't mean to intrude
But despite what you assume or pretend to presume
Just cause we're screwed up that don't mean that we're screwed

This city's gotten weird
Ever since you disappeared
Seems like what I feared
Is rising up with a sneer

This glass is all smeared
But I still trust my ears
And I hear that the end may be near
But not the kind that you think

When they've lit the fuse and the apocalypse blooms
When the earth seals her womb, the dead climb from their tombs
The whole world's come unglued but I've built this canoe
And I'll follow this river till it leads me to you

Your memory imbues me with the strength to get through
I'll float through these ruins and shadowy plumes
Past crippled survivors scrounging for food
Black fire consumes all the lies we construed

What I'm trying to say is we've got nothing left to lose
We'll settle our feud as history concludes
The sky's lost its blue, it's got a new kind of hue
We'll hold on to each other and enjoy the view
Track Name: I Don't Correspond
Caffeine, nicotine, and amphetamine are gonna help me write this song
Bob Dylan, if he's willing, will be filling in the blanks and killing the rhymes that ring wrong
I've got enough mistakes and heartbreaks to fill the waters of Acheron
But Bob, he assures me, there's only six more hours till the dawn

Betrayed by a beautiful Benedict, battered by a bitter ballerina
Reeled in by remarkable rhetoric, duped by a delicate demeanor
She dropped me like a derelict, then asked why I don't correspond
Why's she asking now, there's only five more hours till the dawn

I waited for what seemed like centuries to say in a gentle tone,
"I forgive you, I love you, I've missed you, you're home."
I don't know if she was still too close or too far gone and moving on
I try to keep my mind open these last four hours till the dawn

Now these dark-eyed mystics with their ruby-red lipstick in thigh-high hose and rings on their toes
Whisper sexy cryptic secrets I never wanted to know
Is the ending already written, the conclusion already foregone?
One of them says she'll help me through these three last hours till the dawn

This certain sybil swears she'll settle all my ails
And like a fairy tale she'll lead me right back to the trail
She says she don't expect me to switch into some sweet swanky swimming swan
So I'll make sure we make the most of these last two hours till the dawn

I sleep in the aquarium, I get high in the planetarium
My mistakes, I bury them; my burdens, I carry them
If I could chant an ancient spell or wave my magic wand
I'd rewind the clocks and make it more than one more hour till the dawn

Caffeine, nicotine, and amphetamines helped me write this song
I've been wide awake all night but this morning light feels kind of wrong
I try to stand up and look around but I'm not yet that strong
I fall back in bed and whisper, "Only twenty-four more hours till the dawn"

Betrayed by a beautiful Benedict, battered by a bitter ballerina
Battered by a bitter ballerina, battered by a bitter ballerina
I don't know if she was still too close or too far gone and moving on
But she dropped me like a derelict and then asked why oh why I don't correspond

I don't correspond
Track Name: Come To Life
You're hungry and you're thirsty
But you're breathing on your own
Waiting for a name
Waiting for a home

You were buried in the backyard
But you crawled out on your own
Almost fully formed
Almost fully grown
And waiting for a name

Light or air or medicine
Tell me what you need
I swear that I don't even mind
If you feed off my other dreams

I thought I only dreamed you
It was so long ago
I'm sorry, but please don't leave me
All alone

Oh come to life

Keep breathing in and out
Keep breathing in and out
Keep breathing in and out
Keep breathing in and out...
And stay alive
Track Name: Indiana Jones
We'll hide in Sherwood Forest
And fashion bows and arrows
Then we'll ride our brontosaurus
And fight the fascist pharaoh

We can search for buried treasure
Look for UFOs
If you be Princess Leia
Then I'll be Indiana Jones

We don't have to act like grownups
Just cause we're getting old
Our souls are begging
To go out and play

We'll shine like diamonds
Be brave and bold
Let our instincts
Point the way

The card sharks will fold
Before the hand is even dealt
Oz will be made whole again
The wicked witch will melt

We'll swing through Gotham City
Capture all the ghosts
Then we'll sing a little ditty
Drive down to the coast

We don't have to act like grownups
Just cause we're getting old
Our souls are begging
To go out and play

We'll shine like diamonds
Be brave and bold
Let's go over the top
Let's get carried away

We can search for buried treasure
Look for UFOs
If you be Princess Leia
Then I'll be Indiana Jones

We're gonna rise up from our tombs
We're gonna fly up to the moon
Our time is coming pretty soon
In the starlight we just might be alright

We're gonna rise up from our tombs
We're gonna fly up to the far side of the moon
Our time is coming pretty soon
It's a good night for the good fight
We just might escape this temple of doom
Track Name: Sooner Or Later
If you keep sitting there so pretty
Keep crossing your legs like that
I'm gonna say something shitty
I'll come to regret

But what do you have to lose
Besides some dignity and some cheap-ass booze
If we're gonna have a conversation
Let's have it soon
Cause all I want is you

Sooner or later
You'll fall for my tricks
Cause I'm just an asshole
And you're just a chick

Hey, I'm sorry
Sorry it came out that way
I couldn't let our friends hear
I couldn't let our friends hear
I couldn't let our friends hear
What I really want to say

You're a woman
I'm a raging prick
Sooner or later
I'm gonna make you sick

You do more to me
Than I'd like to admit
My knees buckle
My lips spit out shit

When your body quivers
With that sultry grace
I shiver
When I see your face

I'm still not conveying what's in my head
Afraid of what you'd do
What you'd do if I said,

"Watch out, I'm falling for you
I'm the kind of guy who breaks when I hit the ground
So watch out, I'm falling for you
Could I trouble you to catch me on my way down
On my way down
On my way down
On my way down"

I'm the kind of guy who breaks when I hit the ground
Could I trouble you to catch me on my way down
Could I trouble you to catch me
Could I trouble you to catch me
On my way down
Track Name: Bridge
I go downstairs with my brother and sister
To bring up some Cokes and pick out a game
Dad's made a fire, Mom's rocking back and forth
Reading a book, warmed by the flames

She looks up and smiles when she sees what we picked
She's made us a feast of our favorite snacks, chips and dip
As we play, an old Hitchcock movie's playing on the screen above us
And above that we're watched over by those we've lost who still love us

My family falls asleep by the fire all around me
The black and white ghosts smile and surround me

Please stay with me
Hold me up
Hold me up

In the summer we pack up the car and head west
Drive for days and days, offset by sweet motel rest
We get to the mountains, we've come here to play
My heart and my hands know I"ll live here someday

Mom and Dad make a picnic, watch their sons and their daughter
Talk about cougars and bears, skip stones across the water
We stay in a lodge in the national park
Drive around, look for animals just before it gets dark

These pictures flash for a moment
Then they disappear again
I forget where I came from
And I sink back into sin

They say the mountains are fountains for men
So I'm shouting from the cliff-tops till the words flow from my pen
They say the mountains are fountains for men
So I'm shouting from the cliff-tops till I remember myself again

I'm gonna find me a woman who dreams the same as me
Both apocalyptic sunsets and family picnics by the sea
This time we'll be forever, this time I'll make it last
We'll make ourselves a future by falling for our pasts

This is not a song about innocence lost
It's just about a bridge I'm halfway across
Track Name: The Roof
You wake up in the morning to a sad commute
But the route's familiar and you're resolute
And your compact discs keep you brave

You've got a lot of meaningless work to produce
There are people at the office you'd like to shoot
Maybe my smile makes it a little less gray

I must confess you look too damn cute
In your bright blue dress and your big black boots
So excuse me if I'm a little aloof
I'm just trying to find the right words to say

Let's go up to the roof
We've got some truths to deduce
And some lips to let loose

In your business, swimming, workout or birthday suit
Let's stop wasting time, it's getting late

We're fire, water, fool, and bullet proof
But under our clothes we keep parachutes
In case we may need to escape

We're bigger than the bruises, and taboos, and the booze
Let's refuse to abuse the clues that ring true
Let's use this new view to lose these overdue blues
If we trust each other we might just pull through

Let's go up to the roof
Deduce some truths, let our hair hang loose

The sky is bright and the night feels right
At this height
We don't need no excuse

If we bury our fears and hold on tight
In the morning light we might take flight

Cause we're fire, water, fool, and bullet proof
I don't think we'll need these parachutes tonight

We're not gonna need these parachutes tonight
No, we're not gonna need these parachutes

We don't need no parachutes...
Track Name: Dance
Breathe breathe in and out
You've got to dance dance, twirl about
You've got to move
Move to prove you've got nothing to lose

You've got to shake shake shake the past
Make make make it last
Drink it, chug it down, pound it down
Touch it, kiss it, spin it around

Do we exist just once or are we infinite?
Is it life or death that don't mean shit?
Get lit up, twist and shout, snort shit up, then sort it out
The world's too big or it's way too small
Everything means everything or nothing at all

You've got scars from love, but stardust in your blood
You know the last name you were given, but I know your true one
Everything you think of doing's already been done
This is our ten thousandth trip around the sun

When we're entwined once more down on the shore
It's easy to remember that we've been here before
We count new rings of planets instead of rings of trees
We set our clocks by sensing the subtle shifts of the sea

Breathe breathe, dance and dance
Chalk our coincidences up to chance
Move move
Keep on moving till you hit the wall

Shake shake shake the past
Make make this time last
The world's too big or it's way too small
Everything means everything or nothing at all

You've got to perfect the disconnect you helped them architect
No time to reflect about when you next expect to resurrect
Wait till you return to the real world to decide what's right or wrong
Don't you worry about anything while you're wrapped up in this song

You know the name you were given, but not the one you've always used
Till your toes curl in the surf, and your ancient eyes see right through
To when our souls were young and the world was new
We had eons to decide who to be and what to do

The last time we stood on this sand I was a rich American businessman
You were a courtesan from Afghanistan holding talismans in the palm of your hand
You moved into my palace on an island off the Yucatan
This time around you've gotta trust me, I'm doing the best that I can

So dance dance dance
Dance dance dance

We had a palace off the Yucatan
A palace off the Yucatan
A palace off the Yucatan
A palace off the Yucatan

Please be patient, I'm doing the best that I can
Please be patient, I'm doing the best that I can

I'm doing the best that I can
I'm doing the best that I can
Track Name: Sweetheartbreaker
We could climb magic beanstalks if you want
Or just sit around and talk
We could slay all those monsters on our block
Or we could learn how to stand before we walk

You're a sweetheartbreaker

You won't believe this glass slipper will fit
You've got more suitors than you'd like to admit
While you sleep soldiers circle you and raise their fists
To make sure I don't wake you with a kiss

We were too high up on those beanstalks
To see all the magic that we'd lost
I'm still awake and alone and it's four o'clock
Should have learned how to stand before we walked

Should have learned how to stand before we
Walked
Away
Track Name: Summer
Okay, all these words that I say
Are weighed down with cliches and they rhyme the same way
I've been in a crazy dazed haze for the past couple days
Afraid of what I won't convey before these memories fade

Can't claim my bed's been made since the last time you stayed
Some days my brain can't contain the rainy thoughts I entertain
But the giddy games that we played, the paper planes that we made
Make it easy to explain why I smile when I say your name

If you feel the same as me when you look me in the eyes
Let's devise a compromise so these feelings never die
All kinds of surprises could be waiting down the line
If we decide to keep our minds off what's between each others' thighs

We'll never have to deny
We were always best
Always best
When we were high

You probably had a little mollie on that San Francisco trolley
Some cocaine on the brain the last time that you called me
I smoke cigs and eat pills when I feel like I'm falling
Neither of us has any reason to be sorry

Time flies by us snorting science in the stall
We stumble down the hall, kiss hard against the wall
Then we climb back up to the roof
And watch the stars fall

We were undercover lovers
We were never discovered
But sometimes I wonder
What would have happened
If someone pulled back the covers

Would you shudder and mutter about being smothered
What I stutter another unforgivable blunder
Or would our hearts flutter
And hold on even closer to each other?
It was a hell of a summer

I shift my focus from your sexy hipster lips
And the way my fingertips gripped your slippery hips
Cause I'm ill-equipped to see the pieces that don't fit
And I swear if I slip it'll only be for a little bit

I won't try to steer us clear of our respective directions
I'll protect what's left of our affectionate connection
I don't expect our lives to keep on intersecting
So just know I've got your back wherever you're heading

Oh, it was a hell of a summer
Track Name: Summer (alt)
Okay, all these words that I say
Are weighed down with cliches and they rhyme the same way
I've been in a crazy dazed haze for the past couple days
Afraid of what I won't convey before these memories fade

Can't claim my bed's been made since the last time you stayed
Some days my brain can't contain the rainy thoughts I entertain
But the giddy games that we played, the paper planes that we made
Make it easy to explain why I smile when I say your name

If you feel the same as me when you look me in the eyes
Let's devise a compromise so these feelings never die
All kinds of surprises could be waiting down the line
If we decide to keep our minds off what's between each others' thighs

We'll never have to deny
We were always best
Always best
When we were high

You probably had a little mollie on that San Francisco trolley
Some cocaine on the brain the last time that you called me
I smoke cigs and eat pills when I feel like I'm falling
Neither of us has any reason to be sorry

Time flies by us snorting science in the stall
We stumble down the hall, kiss hard against the wall
Then we climb back up to the roof
And watch the stars fall

We were undercover lovers
We were never discovered
But sometimes I wonder
What would have happened
If someone pulled back the covers

Would you shudder and mutter about being smothered
What I stutter another unforgivable blunder
Or would our hearts flutter
And hold on even closer to each other?
It was a hell of a summer

I shift my focus from your sexy hipster lips
And the way my fingertips gripped your slippery hips
Cause I'm ill-equipped to see the pieces that don't fit
And I swear if I slip it'll only be for a little bit

I won't try to steer us clear of our respective directions
I'll protect what's left of our affectionate connection
I don't expect our lives to keep on intersecting
So just know I've got your back wherever you're heading

Oh, it was a hell of a summer
Track Name: Sing Anymore
You're never gonna stop
You're never gonna see
You're never gonna believe
That there's nothing left of me

You're never gonna stop
And all that I'm saying
Is you're down on your knees
But you don't look like you're praying

But it doesn't really sting anymore
And I can't feel a thing anymore
I don't want to sing anymore

You can have my four-leaf clover
You can squeeze it in your fist
You can turn over and over
My medallion of St. Chris

You can have all my karma
You can have my shooting star
I probably should have warned you
That I'd keep playing your guitar

I can't feel a thing anymore
I don't want to sing anymore
I don't want to sing anymore