Rescue What You Can

by Tyler Taylor

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I put together two albums (this one and "Tell Me That It's There") which are essentially compilations of a lot of the songs I wrote between 2006 and 2011, before forming The Amends with Drew, Chris, and Shay. I really love a lot of these songs, despite the varying levels in quality of recording and singing. None of these songs were professionally recorded-- it was generally just me, my laptop (using Audacity and M-Audio), and a variety of instruments. In many ways, these represent me learning how to be a songwriter (if that's what I am now). A good chunk of the early ones are about a particular breakup, which actually was the catalyst for learning how to create songs-- as unbearably emo as that may sound. If you listen to The Amends, you may recognize some shared DNA in a few of these.

If you download the whole album, there are also three bonus tracks-- the first version of The Amends' "Dandelion Man", a very different version of "Why'd You Come Back", and the title track.

Brief notes on some songs:

"Rescue What You Can" starts the album, but it was the last song of these I wrote. Like its subject matter, it's kind of a schizophrenic song, jumping from a hip-hop bassline to garage to southern rock. The verse lyrics incorporate/pervert Richard Brautigan's great poem, "The Pill Versus The Springhill Mine Disaster". We had already formed The Amends by the time I recorded this. We actually played it live a couple times with Drew on vocals and lead guitar (a big improvement), and if you download the whole album there's a version of The Amends playing it live as a bonus track. If you're into that kind of thing.

"Alright" came from me trying to blend art forms. I wanted to make a short story, a poem, and a song all in one-- and then tack on a punchline at the end. Who knows If I succeeded (but I do know the second half is a bit rushed)

"Suck You Dry" is probably the only vampire/work metaphor-song I'll ever write, but no promises.

"Vu Deja" and "Table It" contain my favorite lyrics I've written, for very different reasons.

"The Lakehouse" is probably a bit much.

"The Bird Woman" is inspired by "This Building Is A Starship". You should Google it if the name intrigues you. If it doesn't, then don't bother because it's pretty much exactly what it sounds like.

"Won't Look Back" was one of the very first songs I wrote (the only one of the batch that isn't quit embarrassing enough to keep locked away forever), and that's kind of how it sounds.

I included "They Can't Make Statues Of Us All" as a bonus track because I love the song but hate the recording of it more than the others. The levels are all over the place, and my voice is worse than usual. This may come back in a different version in the future with The Amends.

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released May 20, 2012

All songs written, performed, sung (fairly weakly), and recorded (fairly shoddily) by Tyler Taylor, except:

- "Winter" contains a violin riff similar to the "Deadwood" TV theme

- "Rescue What You Can" adapts lyrics from Richard Brautigan's "The Pill Versus The Springhill Mine Disaster".

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Tyler Taylor Boulder, Colorado

Hi, I'm Tyler. You may know me from my band, The Amends. I'm pretty sure you must if you've found your way here. I made this site so that I could have a place to quietly share my older songs (ones I mostly wrote before founding The Amends with Drew) with anyone who's interested. I recorded and played these myself, so forgive the varying sound quality. All songs are technically free. ... more

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Track Name: Alright
She appeared out of nowhere, a stranger across the bar, as the paper fell from my hand. She caught it with her slender sinewy arm before it hit the floor.

She said, "We'll have to make this work as an introduction". Then she read my scribbles out loud.

It said,

"I thought that I had caught her
But her heart decayed to clay
So I went and asked her father
Why his daughter couldn't stay

"He said I shouldn't even bother, he taught her
That love dies long, long, long before it grays
'The wind whips across the water
Which will wash you right away'"

So I said it wasn't mine. She said, "Oh no?"
I said, "Okay it is, it was, but that was a long long time ago."
She sat down across the table and said, "I don't know what's worse--
Recalling or dreaming or thinking or writing or speaking in verse."

So I stopped. I stopped. I did. She sipped her drink. I gulped mine. My face was red. I looked up at the TV. I watched whispers of war, watched markets free-fall. She said nothing. I bit my nails. I started to stand.

She said, "Not yet." She shook her head. She set down her glass and she said,

"This gritty rusty world has got me feeling kind of shitty
The apocalypse that's coming's got me weighed down in pity
So if you're still feeling, if you're still feeling... witty
I guess I'd just like to hear... something pretty."

So I said,

"The sky over our city is gonna fall tonight
But I don't want you to think it won't be alright
Out west the moon's still shining bright
And I'd like to see you in campfire light
The mountains are still standing, the snow will melt
The falls remind us how fairy tales felt
The Leviathan smiles but he's miles from here
We've got a little while before he's anywhere near
We'll spill our dark secrets in some ruined hotel
Then skip out to the courtyard to throw them down the wishing well
Down the wishing well

"When the ocean catches fire, the air turns black
We'll fight for the future, forget about the past
Climb the crumbling towers till the view is clear
Then watch it all disappear
But we're still here
We're still here."

Then I stopped, embarrassed, and mumbled to the floor, "I'm really not the fine man you may take me for. My past has died, my present lies, and it's only when the world ends that I'll hit my stride. But if you have a little patience till the end of days, we can talk awhile, and stay up late."

She said, "That's a fucked up way to ask me if I want to spend the night."

Then she said, "Alright."
Track Name: Grew
In haunted homes
Our minds overflowed
With Nintendo codes
The faint whiff of new pheromones

The world still unknown
Still throwing a soft glow
We were small, weak and prone
To being blown away by cyclones

And now that we're grown
Heads hung low under car loans
Our bones they moan
As we reach for the phone

It's not our fault the world's corroded and slowed
But we won't bitch and moan about what we think we're owed

We're older than we should be
It's colder than it could be
My shoulder can hold both you and me

We grew
Into our shadows
We knew
What the future held
The truth
Was pretty simple
We accrued lots of secrets but we had nothing knew to tell

We've overflowed with haunted homes
Nintendo codes and pheromones
A sudden glow, a world unknown
Pay no mind to groaning bones
I've heard and seen a lot of things
Cast-off rings and summer flings
Screaming queens stuck in-between
Bitter kings and broken dreams
The soothing purr of soft machines
The rushing blur of springtime streams
The way your eyes shined and beamed
The last time that we got clean

The soothing purr of soft machines
The rushing blur of springtime streams
The way your eyes shined and beamed
The last time that we got clean
The last time that we got clean

We grew into our shadows, knew what the future held
We accrued a lot of secrets, but nothing new to tell

I accrued a lot of secrets, but nothing new to tell
Except the way your eyes shined and beamed
The last time that we got clean
Track Name: Why'd You Come Back
Why'd you come back?
Why couldn't you leave well enough alone?
Did you think that
I'd come crawling on my knees back home?

Since I did, don't you think
That it should have been a warning sign?
After what you did, and what I'm doing
Something's not right in my mind

You were right about everything but me
When you said I was kind and good and honest through and through
I'm not half the man I pretended to be
I'm wrong about everything but you

You should have let it rest
Let us both keep our illusions
It would have been best
Not to come to this sad conclusion

Cause now you have to see
My darker predilections
And my hungriest addictions
That have all been set free

You were right about everything but me
I'm gonna close my eyes and hope that you're gone by the time I count to three
Cause you broke my heart so if you give me the chance I'll break yours, too
Now that's what I do
I'm wrong about everything but leaving you

I can't take you back tomorrow
But I'll take you in tonight
We'll lie sweetly to each other
Say everything's all right

But there's still a bright light in the space between us
I thought had all but died
I don't need it where I'm going
So you should take it, I don't mind

In the morning when I wake up
And I know that you're gone
I'll never ever let go
I'll just stop holding on
Track Name: Winter
I'm not quite dying
But I'd be lying
If I keep denying
That the dark is rising
The dark is rising

Don't think I haven't drawn back the curtains
Seen the falling snow, heard the calling crows
And other signs of the squall

Don't think I didn't make goddamn certain
I could see the words are clawed six inches deep
Into the wall
The dark is rising
The dark is rising

But no
No, I'm not dying
No, no
I'm far from dying

A little bit of winter don't mean a thing
A little bit of winter, it don't mean a thing
I've got a warm warm blanket and a thousand dreams
So a little bit of winter don't mean a thing

Whatever the rising darkness brings
The freeze is never quite as deep as it first seems
A little bit of winter don't mean a thing
We'll build a fire and sing sing sing

I've got a warm warm blanket and a thousand dreams
So a little bit of winter don't mean a thing
A little bit of winter don't mean a thing
A little bit of winter don't mean a thing
Track Name: Suck You Dry
I didn't used to be this way
I didn't used to be this way
I didn't used to be
Used to be this way

My tie smiles for me
My wallet thinks for me
My phone speaks for me
I didn't used to be this way

They say I'll live forever
They say I'll live forever
They say I'll live forever
They say I'm never gonna die

They tamed me
And they named me
They trained me
And they paid me

They explained
They were gonna ordain me
Then they laid me
Out on the rug

And they drained
They drained my veins of blood
They sucked me dry

I know I took it bravely
There was no one there to save me
My bridges were burned

When they come on back to wake me
I'm not afraid of what I'm craving
I lick my lips

I wake as the daylight's fading
I can see my future plainly
It's glowing bright

Spin me around to the window
Tell me what I need to sell
I'm getting kind of hungry
So point me towards that smell

Through the whole in your soul
Your neck, wrist or thigh
I'm gonna suck you dry
I'll suck you dry
I'll suck you dry...

I'm gonna suck you dry!
And I'm never gonna die!

So just give it up, and close your eyes
I'm gonna suck you, gonna suck you dry
Through the whole in your neck, your wrist or thigh
I'm never ever, never ever gonna die

I'm gonna suck you dry!
And I'm never gonna die!
Cause I'll suck you dry!
Through the whole in your soul, your neck or your thigh!

Please drive a stake through my heart
Before I tear you, tear your apart
You better drive a stake through my heart
Before I tear you, tear you apart
And I suck you dry
Or else I'm never gonna die
Track Name: Vu Deja
I don't miss your touch
I don't miss it all that much
"Trust me, I'll be fine,"
I lied

In the backseat of your car
We measure how far apart we are
And decide
Maybe we've taken this a bit too far

This is a strange case of vu deja
It hasn't happened before but it will someday
And I swear that when it does you'll wrap my arms back around you

You won't remember this time when it happens again
But it'll feel familiar just beneath your skin
And you'll probably chalk it up to deja vu

Four months have gone by and you still deny
That you may have made a mistake
And you don't know why when you say my name
Your legs uncontrollably shake

When you lie awake at night
My ghost floats around you in the moonlight
If you touch my shadow on your bedroom wall
You can breathe me back to life

This is a strange case of vu deja
It hasn't happened before but it will someday
And I swear that when it does you'll wrap my arms back around you

You won't remember this time when it happens again
But it'll feel familiar just beneath your skin
And we'll probably chalk it up to deja vu
Track Name: Table It
Let's assess the present situation
Open up a channel of communication
Consolidate the team's integrated cooperation
You know my expectations of increased integration
Let's take it to the next iteration

Let's table it
Let's take it offline
Let's table it
Ping me when you've got the time
Let's table it
We'll try to shift the whole paradigm

Increase productivity
Reduce negativity
We're gonna nurture creativity
But we'll have to stifle all this sensitivity

We've got a lot of competition in these harsh market conditions
But you're all integral parts of our new value proposition
So help me help you make a smooth transition
To expand the definition of your current position

Let's touch base

And let's table it
Wait till we're off the clock
Let's table it
We'll figure it out ad-hoc
Let's table it
Let's do it outside the box
Let's table it
But touch base tonight
Let's touch base tonight

Your next will show a bump in compensation for that HR violation
To ensure my actions won't impact the corporation's reputation
You should be proud of all your efforts and energy
Vis-a-vis your mastery of synergy
I know you're expecting much more executive visibility
But ideally you'll bury my memory underneath that trembling machinery

Ideally you'll bury my memory underneath that trembling machinery
Ideally you'll bury my memory underneath that trembling machinery
Ideally you'll bury my memory underneath that trembling machinery
Ideally you'll bury my memory underneath that trembling machinery

Um...
Where was I...
What was I saying...
Synergy... corporate visi... energy...
Nevermind...

Just table it
We've gotta shift this paradigm
Just table it
Ping me when you've got the time
Just table it
Gonna take this all offline
Track Name: The Lakehouse
At the lakehouse they won't find us
We're gonna break out of what binds us
We're gonna shake out of our shyness
We're gonna make out under the stars

The mistakes and doubts that used to bind us
Can help us make out what defines us
We're gonna fake out what's behind us
Before it finds us caught off-guard

"You gonna flake out like the last time?"
Was the first thing that she asked
I said, "We're only seventeen
We could be moving much too fast"

Then she laughed and said,
"I think you didn't quite get my point."
I said, "I might have missed your words
Cause I was so taken by the sound of your voice."
We kissed and went inside to find our friends, the keg, and the warming glow of a joint

At the lakehouse we'll wake up soused
Both wearing our fake daybreak pouts
Till we wade out to where the water feels right
Swim straight out towards that glimmering light
At the lakehouse

I said, "They're gonna find out soon this isn't really our place
That we chased out the real owners with threats and mace."
She said, "Baby trust me, that's the point, we'll be fine
When they've got us surrounded that's when you'll shine."

At the lakehouse they've got us staked out
They say they'll wait us out cause there's no way out
And the front gate's doused in warpaint
And gasoline

We're gonna break out of the lakehouse
Through our secret escape route
Hear the faint shouts behind us
Head straight south towards our submarine

We flee unseen along the stream, down the steep ravine
Moonbeams tease between the tops of the trees
The water's deepening, the cliffs are steepening
The pristine evergreens receding
We see the floating machine that'll carry us
All the way out to the sea

It's hard to believe there's no army we lead
It's just you and me in this widescreen scene
Your skin smells like sweet nectarines
I've never seen your face look so serene
Like this is your normal evening routine
This need to be redeemed
By a team of screaming machine-gun Marines
Chasing us back to our American dream

Sinning with a sweet sincerity
Sinking into sweat, we're seventeen
Track Name: The Bird Woman
She found me at a party when I was at the end of my wits
I didn't know her face but her grace and movements seemed to fit
This woman I used to work with, whose tent I once shared
She camped out at the office at night to show her bosses that she cared

She asked to share a smoke, I told her that I'd quit it
"So have I," she said, "That's why we'll split it
Birds flocked to her shoulder the moment we stepped outside
A gentle breeze wrapped around her, and she started to rise

She said, "Each night when I sleep, they hollow out my bones
Every morning I feel lighter and sicker and more alone
They said I should surrender and I'm beginning to agree
I've made a phone call, I've made a deal, they're coming for me"

She climbed up on the railing and she stood right on my hand
She said, "The more you explore the universe the more it expands"
She fell slowly back and forth like an autumn leaf in the sky
The only girl in the world for which similes really apply

I told her I could save her, I could find her a home
She said, "Thanks but you're a little too late and a little too stoned
You just stand there confused and obtuse
They'll study me or fix me or they'll find me a use"

I asked, "Who are they?" She said, "Men of science
They'll finally allay all my thoughts of defiance"
But she asked me to come with her down to the city docks
I hadn't smelled the sea in a while so I took that walk

The harbor is covered in fog; I prepare to be brave
The wind she carries with her pushes back the waves
Out of the haze come men in white suits and masks
"Is there gonna be trouble?" the biggest of them asks

She touches my cheek and shakes her head
She says, "Don't get sentimental, look straight ahead."
She walks over and offers up her arm
When the syringe plunges in, she feels happy and warm

They lay her gently across the seats in the stern
But they can't quite get the engine to turn
They grab her legs and lift her into the air
She sails them away, on towards her repair

She sails them home, and I wave goodbye
To the only girl in the world to which similes really apply
Track Name: Won't Look Back
You've made up your mind
You've decided to leave me behind
Even as we lie
Intertwined

Not even sure what went awry
Or what crime was enough to bring our demise
Or what I'm supposed to imply
From your wry tongue-tied goodbye

You said, "Quit your crying
It's just this night that's dying
And I don't want to
Do anything more to hurt you"

You said, "Keep on going
Keep your fear from showing"
Cause you're moving on
And you won't look back

I don't quite get it
Which of my bad habits
Was enough to make you end it
Which word did I say that you couldn't edit

It doesn't matter how far you are
Cause I'm still here playing your guitar
I'm sorry but it's true
This starry sky reminds me of you

You said, "Quit your crying"
It's just my mind that's dying
Soon there won't be
Anyone left to hurt you

She said, "Keep on going
Keep your fear from showing
I'm grown up now
And I can't look back"